There is something unmistakably positive to be said for the effect of UG’s company in books, video, audio, or what not. I don’t think you have to have met him for this to be the case. The search, the effort I made to understand things before I met him allowed me the discrimination to appreciate the benefits of the struggle that ensued in me while being around UG. As I look back with that in mind, nothing was wasted. One example would be my obsession with Jiddu Krishnamurti’s teachings before I met UG. That interest laid a groundwork for meeting UG with some appreciation for what he was driving at. Nothing comes without some kind of effort, or as he put it, ‘homework’. In some areas this will yield material results apparent to others, whereas in other areas, like the area of simply living, that area addressed by UG, this effect will be impossible to prove or measure in the social arena. My efficiency for surviving in the world increased while I was around UG. My capabilities and energies were more effectively put to use for lesser needs. This is the case as long as I am not questioning or hankering for security in the future. As soon as the concern for future comes in, fear takes hold. Wanting more always leads to trouble. As long as I am focused on simple needs, I can say I have never felt so purposeful as I do now. Silly as it may seem, or contradictory, I get more energy, more life support from writing about UG than anything else I’ve done in my life. He was a corrective lens, a living calibrator for life and the effect of that was revealed to me through writing, something I never felt the urge to put to use until I met him. Calibration is a fantastic word because it means getting the most out of a particular machine, and all machines are particular. We all have our abilities, none are better or worse than the rest if you put aside the social agenda. We are each suited to a unique life. He was shoving us all into that corner to sort out for ourselves what that would mean in our individual frames.
“What do you want?” is a simple question that could occupy you for the rest of your life. A question like that will bring you into focus like nothing else if its allowed to do its work. So with that in mind, nothing is wasted unless I ignore the question. One effect of the time spent with him, is that as soon as I compromise this I pay.
His commentary about all this was so simple it is easily overlooked but the proof is in the living. The comment “All this and heaven too, just forget about it…” begs the question, what is “All this” for me, and what is the ‘heaven’…? That is a question I have to sort out for myself. One can be known, the other cannot. Life cannot be known, only static things can be measured and he was never static. That’s the challenge and no one can take care of, approve, disapprove, or help you to get to the bottom of that, except maybe that invisible force of longing for peace we either ignore or address that is demanded of us by this machine we call a body. If we ignore it, we are at our own peril, at the mercy of a society that is driven by oppressive demands. If I address it, it forces me to slow down and listen. That can’t be harmful to anyone, whereas as soon as I start hankering for something more, watch out!!